by Lynn H. Blackburn @LynnHBlackburn

Not too long ago, I learned to SCUBA dive.

I was so excited! I’ve wanted to learn for a long time.

Unfortunately, I was NOT a star student.

Oh, I did great in class. All the calculations for pressure and volume? No problem. (Who says I never use that chemical engineering degree?)

But then we got in the pool . . . and I panicked in five feet of water.  

Turns out that the brain knows humans aren’t designed to breathe underwater. And when we try, everything in our brain says, “You idiot! Get your head above water!”

On more than one occasion I found myself floating on the surface while the rest of the class remained settled on the bottom of the pool, apparently as content as they could be while I was fighting the urge to cut my losses and get out of the water.

At this point, you may be wondering how on earth I ever passed the class. It’s really quite simple. My instructors never gave up on me . . . and they never made me feel bad for being a beginner.

No matter how much I struggled, they remained unfailingly kind. Unbelievably patient. Even though diving is something that is second-nature to them, they never made me feel ridiculous for my anxiety. Never made me feel incompetent for my mistakes. Never berated me for forgetting something they’d told me ten minutes earlier.

Which was good, because I was berating myself a lot.

Turns out that I do not like being a beginner. 

I don’t like the uncertainty. The fear. The embarrassment that comes from making a mistake. The frustration that comes from having to do it—again—because it just didn’t click the first second third time.

But this adventure in humiliation, er, I mean this experience in learning something new has given me a fresh perspective on how it feels to be a beginner.

Being a beginner is hard, but it’s nothing to be ashamed of.

If you’re new to the writing life . . . and feeling a bit a lot overwhelmed . . . let me say Welcome!

It’s okay if you’re confused about GMC and POV, scenes and sequels, plotting and pantsing. It’s all right if your head is spinning about suspense and tension and if you’re wondering if maybe there isn’t enough coffee in the universe to help you figure out whether you should go traditional or indie.

(It’s even okay if you have no idea what I just said).

Take a deep breath. 

Will you make mistakes? Definitely.

Will you say or do something embarrassing? Probably.

Will you want to quit? Undoubtedly.

But if you don’t quit, if you stay in the writing pool even when you mess up, if you listen to and learn from experienced authors who are committed to seeing you succeed and if you practice even when you’re scared . . . one day you’ll realize you can do this.

You might even like it so much you want to do it all the time. And maybe someday you’ll be the one teaching the new writers and you’ll remember what it was like to be a beginner—how scary and overwhelming it all was. And you’ll make sure they know . . .

It’s okay to be a beginner.

Lynn H. Blackburn loves writing suspense because her childhood fantasy was to become a spy—but her grown-up reality is that she’s a huge chicken and would have been caught on her first mission. She prefers to live vicariously through her characters and loves putting them into all kinds of terrifying situations—while she’s sitting at home safe and sound in her pajamas!

Her Dive Team Investigations series kicked off in 2018 with Beneath the Surface and In Too Deep (A SIBA Okra pick and Selah Award Finalist). The 3^rdbook in the series, One Final Breath, releases in September 2019. She is also the author of Hidden Legacyand Covert Justice,which won the 2016 Carol Award for Short Novel and the 2016 Selah Award for Mystery and Suspense. Lynn lives in South Carolina with her true love and their three children. You can follow her real life happily ever after at WWW.LYNNHBLACKBURN.COM and on FACEBOOK, TWITTER, PINTEREST, and INSTAGRAM.nd their three children. You can follow her real life happily ever after at www.LynnHBlackburn.com and on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, and Instagram.